PRAYER REQUEST

 Dear Global prayer family,

 Please pray for Susan, I am sending you her correspondence with me. Please contact her personally if possible, as I feel that she needs much encouragement at this time.

Much love,

Chrissy

WORSHIP HIM MINISTRIES INTERNATIONAL <chrissy@worshiphim.co.za> wrote:

Chrissy:

You do not know how I needed this. I wanted to give in. I would have ended it I could not feel guilty about my three children, I lost my job after being diagnosed with a spinal cord tumour and a neuromuscular disease. I have no income and have three children to support. I have been steadily losing my strength and balance. I want to be whole for my children again. I know and believe that God will heal me, IF that is His desire.

The anxiety for the past week has been unbearable to the point where I feel helpless and alone. It is the strength of the Lord that has kept me going at a minimum. Your e-mail could not have been more prudent for me at this time in my life. I feel as if the sun is eclipsed, all the stars are gone and I have no light to guide my way.

Thank you for the encouraging words that you have shared here.

God bless you with all of my heart,

Susan

chrissy@worshiphim.co.za wrote:

Dear Susan,

Thank you for your e-mail. With your permission I would like to forward your story to The Global Prayer Family, a group of 68 prayer warriors around the world, for which I am the South African coordinator. These people are powerful intercessors and you need their love and prayers at this time. Would you be willing for me to forward your e-mail address to them as some of them may want to encourage you personally.

Know that you are never alone and that’s Gods love never fails!

Much love,

Chrissy

Dearest Chrissy:

Thank you so much for your love and concern. You are such a servant of the Lord. Please forward my e-mail. I feel so overwhelmed. I have always provided for my children, alone. My children are 16, 14 and 9. Lauren, Elliott and Alexander.

Pride is such a horrible thing. I was in the medical field and studied for about 8 years in Neurology and Sleep Medicine. I was a medical missionary as well. I just would love to have it all back, which if the pride factor. I might never be able to work in that capacity and I need to let go and let God. Sometimes we wonder why situations occur and we are left helpless.

I want so desperately to take care of my children. I cannot even do my daily housework. I am so afraid that I am going to lose my home, etc. because of no income. Today's corporate world does not seem to care about taking it all away and having families live on the street. I know, I used to be a volunteer at Washington Street Missions here in Springfield, IL and saw first hand the despair there. Now, I am in the same place as the people I prayed with. I pray with all of my heart the Lord can use me to reach out to others in some small way.

The fear of dying, of losing it all is so real and terrifying. Chrissy, thank you. Please help me in your prayers. I need them desperately. I feel so much despair that it is hard to feel the Lord's love surrounding me. I used to feel the depths and now I feel such despair. I know He states that we are to cry out to Him with all of our hearts and He will answer. I am crying out with all that I have and I feel empty.

You are a very special and beautiful servant.

Always, Susan